Having a hard time deciding what to do and if I even want to pretend that I fit in any more. I know I do not belong with these people, I don't smoke and I don't really drink at all. I read for a while at the party Saturday, until I was convinced to down a tiny bottle of apple flavored vodka. It just made me really hot and I spent the rest of the time, the next hour or so, laying down in Patricia's bedroom thinking.
I really can't wait for school to start.